lost phone. found.

You know what is one of the best feelings.

when someone finds your phone.

I lost my phone in December when I went with some friends up to a cabin and we went sledding for the day up at the ski slopes. It was really fun. When we got ready to leave, i realized I couldn't find my phone anywhere. I looked in the car and I also looked in the Cabin. The last place I remember leaving it was in my friends car on the driver's side seat...thinking that we weren't  going to take that car, but we ended up taking it. I thought that maybe my phone fell out when he opened up the door, or i thought I left it in my pocket and lost it sledding. It was a terrible thing. I hate when i lose things especially phones when you use them.

but i didn't let it get to me...and realized it was lost...i waited for a couple of days to see if anyone would call. nope no phone call or anything.

it was then the time to get a new phone. so I did. I bought the same phone, because I already was used to using it and enjoyed it. As long as it calls and texts I am fine....so I bought my phone a week later.

thinking I lost my phone.

I got a random text last Night....saying I think I found your phone.

yes I left it up at my friend's cabin and somehow it fell between the couch cushions. REALLY.

so I have my old phone back. which is a great success. and I have my new phone that I bought. ha ha.

two phones now perfect.

It just makes me happy that someone was so kind to text me a message saying that they found my phone.

even though it was a month ago. I'm still so happy!!!!

Never Give up when you lose something. Keep searching ;)

It is always a great feeling when you find something that you lose.....and for me I always have a problem losing things. always. it is just something i struggle with...ask my family and my old room mates they know me. ha ha.

{FOUND PHONE}

road.

The Journey of Life.

Which road am I suppose to take?
Is this what's best for me and what God wants me to do? 

What road are you taking? 

  

I always love looking at photo's of streets or sidewalks or anything out doors really...street pictures catch me by surprise. I always tie them with life, like most of our teachers or thoughts. It really is true though our lives our like roads...they just keep on moving sometimes faster pace and sometimes slower pace. We are always going to have twist and turns unexpectedly even when were not ready. Sometimes those turns will be for the good sometimes they will be for the bad. 
I have been thinking on my life and how my road is going and if I'm making the right decisions. I want my road to be very successful and the best for me. but as for the moment I still don't know what I want to Major in. I have some ideas. but it gets to the point where people keep asking you and you just get annoyed answering the same question back because your not sure. Sometimes I feel as if my road is still going but stopped in the middle of it with a flat tire or seeing a stop sign. and just staring at it in disguise. especially recently I feel as if I'm not going anywhere. it gets to that point where i just go to the gym to release my feelings and especially in my car when i'm all alone. 
Why do i have these thoughts and despairs? 
I know it is Satan and I don't want him to win, which is why I can fix my flat tire to keep on moving with life. I guess it gets to that point where I need to not compare myself to other people's lives, 
other friends, family members, ward members, anyone. 
My life is my life and it will always be moving just like everyone else's life but just in a different pace.  
I just need to remember that and try not to think so much about my future but focus on TODAY. the NOW. the PRESENT. 

things i want to be doin right now.

 SWINGS: swinging in the air, letting your mind be free, feeling the breeze on your face, closing your eyes wishing you could be set free to fly, watching the clouds in the sky, feeling the sun beem on your face, hearing the birds singing songs, no one around to bother, singing loud and proud, letting your feet dangle when swinging. Lets face it your never to old to swing on a swing. i love swinging on SWINGS.

UMBRELLA: walking with something to hold, hides your face from the pouring rain or beeming sun, or even yet will give you shade. the amazing shadow on the sidewalk, feeling like your something with the umbrella, a new best friend to share your adventures with on a wonderful day in the field. for i love UMBRELLAS.

FERRISWHEEL: feeling like your on top of the world, but yet at the bottom at the same time, feeling as if your moving and then stopping in sight. seeing the crowds, the laughter, the screams, the crys, hearing those of who you don't know, not being afraid of heights, going around and around, never gets old, for one day to spend with your true love to kiss at the top of the wheel. to cherish the moments and memories.I love riding on FERRIS-WHEELS.

Flying a Kite: feeling the windy day, letting your mind be free from work, school, life, focusing on the one single thing in site the kite, watching it sway to the right, watching it sway to the left, for the kite is your friend never lost it sight, feeling as if you want to be lifted from the ground to be with the single kite in the sky, find the perfect day and weather to fly this kite, for i love flying KITES.

RAIN BOOTS: the feeling of rain when it touches your faces, the smell, the fresh breeze it gives making everything feel a new sense of peace, cute shoes to splash in the puddles of rain, no dirt, just puddles of rain, the laughter and sense of smile when doing the jumping, for rain never gets old just brings fresh new scene. for I love the RAIN, but I can not forget the BOOTS.for that is me. sarah. 

work. more work.

you know when your just tired from work.

and it has been a long. day>?

well that was today for me. I have been working Monday-Thursday during the day for this one hostess at work that needed those days covered. me being the nice I one I said I would. I also have a problem with saying No, especially when i don't have an excuse. 

so my answer was yes.

sometimes i feel as if I live at my work. and never go home. or the day is over and I didn't do anything besides' work all day. ugh. that was today. worked all day then hit the gym after. can you say exhausted. yes. 

today i worked from: 11:30 a.m to 9:20 p.m...

that is well lets see about 11 hours. oh boy. what a long day at Robintinos's. We close at 9:30 pm. I should have just closed with the other hostess up front, but nope It was my time to leave. ha ha. 

I did get some carrot cake today from a table in the dinning room's birthday. Can I say it was delicious. I am in love with sweeets. yesterday I had 

chocolate pie, and coconut cream pie from my boss. 

delicious also...oh boy those pie's and cake are going to catch up on me. 

i better be eating healthy ;) ha ha yeah that would be the first. 

but really I do. 

i eat sweets and junk food. if you know me it is me. that is what i love ha ha need to make that one of my new years.  goals. 

Just like this picture says: "Stressed is Desserts spelled Backwards". I love this because when I'm not having a good day, or just down or stressed. do what it mentions and have dessert ;) lots and lots of dessert. makes me smile everytime.

well back to work problems.......

you know when people just sometimes get on your nervous.

or when people ask dumb questions.

or when a server asks you to get drinks for her table. but realizing that she only has three tables.

or when your co-workers just get on your nervous.

when people are rude and inconsiderate.
or people just in particular. 

I love being in the people environment. don't get me wrong much better then being in an office just by myself.

I love interacting with people young and old....but when people push my buttons at work or drive me crazy it gets to me. ha ha. What a loooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooong day at work. well least this pay check is going to be MONEY :) that is always a plus to look forward to, but really when it comes down to it: Money isn't everything. 

my mom said after work when I told her i'm exhausted and tired from work. she said that is why you get an education. It dawned on me I do not want to be working in a restaurant when i'm 33 or even 40 Oh boy that would be just terrible.

kimberly's birthday.

I love my sister: Kimberly Anne Monsen.

sleep.

you know what drives me crazy?

....when you get up to walk. and your foot is asleep. ha ha 

.......because you have been sitting to long and then your foot just assumes it can go to sleep.

crazy right. and pretty random. but that just made me laugh today.

.........then it gets that tingly feeling inside..you try to walk but can't and struggle

...........then you just laugh at yourself. and i think to myself guess i spent to much time on my laptop.

oh the laughs. and chuckles......when your feet are asleep.

cafe rio.

pretty much loved today.

my picture sums up my afternoon

• best friend.roommate coming into town: whitney lucas.
• eating lunch at Cafe Rio.
• enjoying my Chicken Salad
• with pinto beans.
• lots of lettuce.
• shredded chicken.
• everything except galcomolia.
• lots of chips.
• mucho chips please.
• green sauce.
• right there is a perfect salad. fills you up for the whole day. 
• splendid.
• water. with the crushed little ice. yes they have the little ice. the best.
• devoring my salad. and water.
• leaving with a HUGE hand full of mints. (they are the best for church) 
• girl talk. and catching up with Whit.
• laughs. updates. memories. troubles. life. 

I love those days. when you have a friend in town and you actually find time that works for the both of you and catch up on a lot of things. 

I love girl talks, being with a friend especially a friend that you have known a long time. 

Where you can tell her anything and she can tell you anything. 

It is the trust foundation. I love that. 

Loved our looooonnnng talk and lunch very much needed that after this week.

love everlasting

father blessings.

wow.
I'm so blessed to be able to have a dad that can give me father's blessing whenever.
he is truly a great example in my life. and I love him dearly.
after the father's blessing.........

i felt a sense of  peace. a feeling of calmness. the power of not giving up. and to keep striving forward but with great purpose. the power of the Holy Ghost that is with me at all times. the power of prayer to use often..to be patience......to know that I'm never alone.......never. the love of my family. love of my parents.    love of my siblings. love of my Heavenly Father.

this really is the true gospel.

what joy and happiness i receive from it.

love of those who passed away.

my grandma recently has been sick with cancer for awhile and has been in the care center.
i heard a phone call to my mom.
after the call she said that my grandma (her mom) has passed away.

it was her time. I know that she is in a better place with her mother and then her mother's mother and etc. to know that the pain and sickness is gone she no longer has to fight it and deal with it. she is now blessed in the after life. to know that she lived a great life. She was closer with my brother's, but I truly loved her for who she was. She always had a sense of humor, even when she was sick she would think of something to say and chuckle. her funny stories even though she told them more then once. memories from when I was young to now..........................

I will always remember the times going with my brother and sister to go swimming. she would bring us lunch and we would eat by the pool as she would watch us swim around. i will remember trying on her colorful hats that me and my sister tried on several times. the time she would put the fire place on when I would come over so I could sit by the warmth. the time our family opened up christmas presents at her house. the time I would watch movies at her house. the jewelery she would let me try on and wear around her place. the shiny cat pin and all her decorative pins. the letters i used to write to her and receive letters back. the birthday cards and birthday money every year. never forgetting the day. her green flowered couches. painting Easter eggs at her place. sitting on her balcony enjoying lunch in the summer. always going to nordstroms to let me buy a BIG HUGE PINk cookie that was always delicious. the shopping humor. her stylish clothing. stylish purses and shoes. her huge sun glasses. her clip on earrings that i always adored. she will be missed but is in a better place. 

I love my Grandma Carol. > always

My mom said in a year that she will be able to do my grandma's temple name. wow what a blessing. I can't wait for that day when my mom does that. it will be a very spiritual moment. ...........................the memories will last forever and ever.

adorable.

 

so at work.

there were these four children out in the lobby with their parents.

they were adorable.

so cute.

lots of energy.

full of smiles.

sometimes i wish i could go back to that fun age? don't you? I know we all probably have our child moments through out are days. well atleast I do. I think we can be children forever ;) ha ha.

well anyways at work we have this hand sanitezer thing that you can use before going into the main dinning room.

the three little children were able to reach it. 

the fourth little girl couldn't. then finally the mom gave in. was holding her and let her put her hands under the hand machine.

she puts her child down.

before you know it the little girl thinks it is food.

because she puts in right into her mouth. funny right.

her face expression after she did that look like she hated it. so disgusted. but so funny at the same time.

poor little girl you have to try out things to figure out how they will tastes.

some better then others......oh the joys of children that entertain me at work. ;) 

patience.

sometimes I wonder where my life is going..............

i pause and think if i'm making the right decisions.............

i hope so. and have faith in God that he will lead the way.........

"Remember who you are and what God expects you to become."
— Thomas S. Monson

"Our task is to become our best selves. One of God's greatest gifts to us is the joy of trying again, for no failure ever need be final."
— Thomas S. Monson

it's hard when you feel as if nothing exciting is happening in your life at the moment........

just work. school. work. work. and more work.

well at least that is how I feel. I know i shouldn't but it just gets to that braking point where you lose it.

i hold in my feelings.......... but then when alone.........i release the stress and frustration with myself.

on of my best friends from high school just got married this tuesday.

she looked amazing and so did he.

i'm so happy for her.

another one of my close close friends is getting engaged this week or next.

happy for her also.

she was telling me about her dress. oh boy she will look amazing as always!

another one of my good friends missionary just came home about 1 1/2 week ago.

they look so cute together

and i love hearing her updates on how they are doin since they have been home.

"The most constant thing is change."
— Thomas S. Monson

 

I'm so happy for all of my friends. and can't wait for my time.

i wonder when my time will come.....i know it won't be for a couple of years because i am not ready.

but seeing my friends at that point. it makes me want to be there also.

i guess time is different. age is different for everyone. 

my time will come.....just as anyone else.... i need to be patient and continue the way i'm living my life so I can be ready. 

"The past is behind, learn from it. The future is ahead, prepare for it. The present is here, live it."
— Thomas S. Monson

two friends.

i was so excited my two friends from the summer semester down at Snow college.
they came down and visited me and spent the nice at my house.

it was soo so so good to see them and catch up.
they were bored in e-town this week and asked what i was doing so i invited them to come sledding the day off lol and they were up for coming.
they drove down.
we went to a YSA sledding activity up at Solider Hollow.
so many people about 600. they sold out of the tickets when we got there.
but that didn't stop us from going. lol we were still able to go 2 times.
we showed up pretty late as it was but still super fun.

Sarah Monsen, Jany (from Hong Kong), Devan (from Idaho)

the best part is you don't have to climb up the hill you just simply sit in your sled and it attaches to a rope and pulls you up.

i was able to reflect and look at the beauty that surround me there while riding up.
the snow.
the mountains.
oh it was so pretty.
the laughing of people. people talking. people sledding. people in lines. people everywhere.
after they were able to have a sleepover at my house.
then we had chocolate chip pancakes in the morning ...thanks to my dad.
they were delicious as always.
then we went shopping.

newest fad: fanny packs.

love them.

LOL. friends love often. laugh often.

on our way to go sledding ;)

shopping. in the spot light.

saying goodbye. friends forever.

 it was a great day. very much needed a girls weekend.

relatives.

it seems like since i saw my brother. i just run into more relatives that i'm not close with.

it's hard. but that is life. and you learn to deal with it and put a smile on and move forward.

my aunt and uncle Ellis's came into work last week. yupp i was seating and did small talk.

awkward. yeah just a little.

more awkward was when i went south town this weekend. saw someone that looked familiar glanced then looked away. i felt i needed to say hi.

i realized it was my cousin. Rikki.

and i asked if that was her name.

yupp i was right.

it is crazy how i can remember someone's face and name and i haven't seen them for 5-6 years or even more.

talent. i guess so.

she had no idea who i was. sad. least i wasn't the dumb one and i knew who she was.

it has been awhile since i have seen her also.

she has two adorable kids that i just barely met. sad sad family relatives.

oh well just learn to love them for who they are even if your not close with them.

wow this has beeeeeeen one loooooooooong week.

sometimes i feel as if it gets harder. and harder.

ughhhh.

heartbroken.

you know when you see someone and your heart just drops.

or a friend that you haven't seen in a long time.

a relative.

a teacher.

a neighbor

a family friend.

etc.

well.........i had that happen to me at work. lets just say it was unexpected.

and i wasn't prepared at all.

probably one of the worst. no i take that back. it was one of the worst days at work.

uhh. it all started out.

lets just say i wasn't even suppose to be working friday morning. i was covering a girls shift.

nice of me right.

well. i saw one of my brothers high school friends walk in, i was in the kitchen smiled and continued what i was doing. 

he left. i thought he did a take out order.

nope i was wrong.

i was seating people of 3 then was about to walk up front to seat the next 3 coming in to the resturatant.

but then all of a sudden i looked in the window when they were walking up.

yupp my brothers friend Joe.

my older brother Alan (who i haven't seen in about 5-6 years)

and the guy who basically took him away from are family, or more postive note he helped my brother out and paid for things. took him under his wing i guess you can say.

i totally went into the main dinning room and into the kicthen.

i felt as if my heart had stopped.

tears started to flow in my eyes.

emotions racing so fast.

memories flowing through my mind.

the hurt.

the heartache.

the pain.

the sorrow.

anger.

seeing my brother was so unexpected.

i thought he was in germany on a business thing.

guess not. 

but really of all places to eat when he comes back they decided to go to my resturant that i work at.

crazy.

well that is what i'm thinking.

It was the hardest time for me at work, my co-workers have never seen me that way.

tears about to flow out of my eyes.

holding it all in.

didn't want to show what was happening to me.

I realized i was at work it hit me.

i needed to look and act professional.

so i continued my job.

seating others that walked in.

walking past their booth that they were sitting at.

killed my heart everytime.

....how can he do that.

it must be so hard for my brother to see his sister and doesn't even say hi or talk to me.

it hurts.

i'm always so confused. 

i couldn't write him on his mission at all. haven't heard anythinng about his mission. nothing.

basically we are dead to him.

sadly to say but it is true.

i know eventually through time he will come around 

but i hope it is soon.

I thought in my head 

racing quesitons over and thinking, and anaylziing.

should i say hi.

does he recongnize me.

but i then felt an over coming of peace.

ps. it was a friday that means i had already been to the temple before work.

i felt a calm of peace to not do anything.

for it is his problem and if he wants to associate with me he can.

i just need to wait until he is ready.

it was hard.

i so wanted to talk to him.

even just to say hi.

or bye.

disappointment struck me.

"may we be strengthened with the understanding that being blessed does not mean that we shall always be spared all the disappointments and difficulties of life." Heber J. Grant

uhh it killed my heart and my soul.

i felt as if i had just been washed away in the seas.

it hurt having someone so close to me not just a relative

but my oldest brother.

my boss even knew something was up.

he said i didn't even know this side of you or that something can stir you up.

went situations like this hit.

it is serious and painful for me.

i'm not a person to show or express my emotions 

it was hard to hold it in barely.

after the day shift ended. 

i walked to my car put my hood on.

and tears fell.

questions in my mind un answerd.

or that i want so badly to be answerd.

heart broken.

tears.

anger

"In a moment of anger, we need to be careful of the things we say. A poor choice of words may leave a deep impression which cannot be erased. Especially in the hearts and minds of those we love and care about."

and tears.

kept falling.

music playing.

mind racing.

driving home i felt as if i was flying i was going a little bit to fast.

walked in my door and told my mom.

it hit me hard.

i wasn't prepared at all.

it challenged me and my emotions.

my thoughts.

for i love my older brother Alan

and hope that someday, I know someday he will come around I just hope sooner then later.

I love him with all of my heart.

he will always be my older brother Alan, always and forever.

I love this gospel to know that Familys can be Together Forever and we are Sealed to one another.

what a blessing it is to know and to feel inside my soul.

i love it.

i love my family so much.

and so sorry for the pain that we all face through this tough family situation with my brother.

i'm always there for my siblings and parents always.

and love them so much that words can't even describe how so.

.I have a fam’ly here on earth.
They are so good to me.
I want to share my life with them through all eternity.

[Chorus]
Fam’lies can be together forever
Through Heav’nly Father’s plan.
I always want to be with my own family,
And the Lord has shown me how I can.
The Lord has shown me how I can.

2. While I am in my early years,
I’ll prepare most carefully,
So I can marry in God’s temple for eternity.

one. one. eleven.

"Time is free, but its priceless. You can't own it, but you can use it. You can't keep it, but you can spend it. Once you've lost it you can never get it back." 

 It is the New Year : 2011

crazy. where did 2010 go. 
It seems like time just keeps going by so so fast.
especially this semester.
it is really almost summer. ha ha okay that is a little further away.
we are now entering the spring. i love spring. flowers and sun ;) 
I have decided on a couple goals that I want to accomplish during this new year of 2011.
....I have made goals in the past but usually write it on a piece of paper then unfourtunatly lose it. So this will help me remember to go back and see what my goals are and how i can accomplish them.
here it goes....

   My 2011 goals.

•  find a good paid day job
• apply for Alaksa during the summer and get accepted.
• figure out what to Study.
• where to go to school in the fall 2011 and spring 2011
• find a place to live for college
• be a better person
• cut back on the sugar intake
• eat more healthier
• excersie daily
• stretch daily
• be a better daughter
• be a better sister
• an example to those that come in contact with me
• strengthen my relationship with the Lord
• build upon my relationship with my siblings
• read daily
• find a good book
• travel. go out of Utah
• teach english in a different country
• become more organized
• help those around me daily
• keep my room clean. i mean clean. 
• save money don't spend it on wants but needs
• use my time wisely
• don't waste my time
• learn something new
• create a new talent
• service to others
• create new friendships. new relationships
• write letters to friends and familys often
• become the best that I can become.

Goals are a time to reflect on the changes we want (or need) to make and resolve to follow through on those changes. I hope I can follow some of the goals that I have made, I know in the future I will continue to make more and accomplish more on my list. Love the Life you Live. Time will always keep moving we need to stop and ponder if we are using our days and time well. I know i tend to waste time. I need to be more appreciate of the time I am given in a day and what I can accomplish.

This will be another grand year.

2011 wooot. woooot. let the year begin.