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Jobs.

Three jobs to keeps me busy which I love. I love being in the working environment, and doing these jobs which I quiet enjoy very much. I haven't had a bad experience yet.

1-P.e teacher

2- babysit for this cute adorable boy up the street named Christoper.

3-Hostesses at Robintinos
* funny thing this was my first job when I was 16 years old. My boss called me two weeks ago and asked me If i was interested in working there again in the evening. They recently had someone quiet so of course I took up the offer and back to working there. It is so fascinating the things our minds remember. I thought i would have to re train, but i remember basically everthing. The menu, setting, cashing people out, phone orders, closing. It is so nice that my brain remebers this. I'm very lucky and love it. Second day back to work... got my favorite pizza number 1 thick crust. light sauce. light cheese...delicious ;)

I still have time to take institute which tonight its my first class at the University of Utah.

I have my sorority Thursday night activitiy

And no work on Sunday so I can focus on my testimony and going to church.

E town.

Going to e town excited but then nervous.

I have realized that the grade in a class does not show the grade of the student it shows the grade work and how well she did in the class on those assignments. I think it is dumb that you try so hard in a subject even if it is one your not good at then in the end you realized you failed the course which brings that disappointment and frustration with myself and I then feel like a complete idiot and start to tear myself apart. I missed my math final by two points. Two points it makes me sick inside to think if I would have gotten those to points I would have passed but I realize that life just keeps on moving forward. I can either be mad at terriable about this situation and like I said tear my self apart. Or I can think positive and be like man I know I do struggle with this subject of math but least I got this far. I have learned and gain more knowledge then before starting the class and left with more knowledge about myself and that it isn’t the end for me. In E town I was talking about my grade and the Math department Dean set up a challenge final for me to take. If I pass this then I will get the credit for the class but If I don’t then that means I will retake the course, but I need to remember that the grade does not see how much time. Effort. You put into the course it only grades the test. Homework assignments and extra. It is sad though when I think about it and how much time and effort students not only me in my situation put into the subject that they still don’t understand or get the methods, but they keep on trying. In the end it is the students lose because they get graded on the material. It really just blows my mind and I think If I was a teacher it would be hard to fail a student and in my case working before class an hour of my free time and meeting with my teacher one on one during the summer for help and questions that I had….I feel as if I was the only one in my class out of the ten students that actually put in my whole effort into the class and more time spend in math then I have ever had. It is sad that after all that effort I don’t pass…but like keeps moving forward and I have taken this experience as a learning experience I did give it my all and tried my best and in the end it wasn’t worth it….hopefully I will do good on this challenge test that I will take in about a month or so.

temple friday's

This is the third week in a row that I have been doing well on the goal to attend the Temple Friday morning every week;)Alisha and I have been doing it and have loved the adventures and the feeling's I feel after attending. We are trying to go to different temples each week. to mix it up a bit.

first week: Salt Lake Temple

second week: Draper Temple

third week (today): Jordan Temple.

I love the blessings of the temple, and that I live so close to so many different temples that I can attend to with my really good friend. When Alisha and I went to the Salt Lake Temple the very first Friday two weeks ago when we both started this goal. I was sitting by this girl named Alexia and she was from out of State and said that the closest Temple for her to go to was about 6 hours away. She just barely joined the church and was visiting Salt Lake because the Missionary that taught her the gospel's family invited her to come to Utah to experience the Salt Lake Temple as well as other things. It made me so grateful to live about 15 minutes away from the Temple. I'm so bless. I Love the feeling inside of the temple. and how I can set aside the worldly things and focus on the savior.my testimony.answer to my questions.promptings. etc. I love how different each temple is but you still get the same peaceful feeling in all of them. I love attending the temple weekly it makes my friday's start off so well and the rest of the weekend is just splendid because of going to the Temple. One of my favorite child hood songs was: I love to see the Temple.

I love to see the temple.
I’m going there someday
To feel the Holy Spirit,
To listen and to pray.
For the temple is a house of God,
A place of love and beauty.
I’ll prepare myself while I am young;
This is my sacred duty.
I love to see the temple.

I’ll go inside someday.
I’ll cov’nant with my Father;
I’ll promise to obey.
For the temple is a holy place
Where we are sealed together.
As a child of God, I’ve learned this truth:
A fam’ly is forever.

wants vs needs.

Again I hate this feeling of not being around friends I love and can actually have a good deep conversation. I love technology but it gets old after a while and I just want to be able to go on a walk with a best friend and talk and share my feelings.

I love my friends and excited for everyone’s adventure…but then I get that feeling of jealousy..which I know I shouldn’t but…hearing about a good friend go to New york to nanny then now traveling with that family super jealous. Friends in college at USU.BYU.SNOW pretty jealous I want to go back to school I miss the environment and being on my own and meeting new people.

I hate thinking and over thinking about situations it really does get mind boggling.

I love being home with my family but then it gets to a point where I want to be with friends every day and meeting new roommates etc. and just the fun life of college.

I always hear that saying these are the best years of your life…and then I wonder and want to do so many things at the moment such as.

Travel.

Shop.

Buy my Minnie cooper.

Get new shoes.

Buy an apartment.

Get back into school.

College life.

Dances.

Dating.

Study abroad.

Ilp program.

But then when I look back up at this list and yes of course it can keep going..it is more of the worldly things that I want to be doing but in the end doesn’t matter. I need to focus and make sure that I’m making the right descions and spending my money on things that are worth it of course you get to have those needs because of a job and money. But it just gets mind boggling. Thinking about 4 5 years ahead. I need to enjoy the moments right now. I love this gospel and it has helped me to meet new people and get back with three girls from my family ward.

P.E is my new fav. thing-

This was my last group of the week that I haven't been able to meet with because I started this job on Tuesday last week. Monday classes are also fun;) I have really enjoyed this job and do not want it to end in November...hopefully after more education I can continue this early child-hood teaching and start being a Elementary School Teacher. I would love that!

1. The second graders one little boy Ocean---yes his name is Ocean was adorable. We were playing Duck Duck Goose but instead of that version we did the child's name version like this--Sarah went over the ocean then the circle repeats it...Sarah went over the sea..repeat...Sarah Caught a Big fish..can't catch me..then I would go and tag someone in the circle. Very fun and the children love this well anyways..this one boy it is his turn and he is like...Ocean went over the Ocean...and the circle of children just laughed my mother and I laughed to it was so funny! 
2. Love all the grades and the energy they bring to my class!! ;) 
3. I'm so grateful for this opportunity to Teach P.E I have enjoyed it very much..and can't wait for tom. morning

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I love this reminder and know that I get so caught up in my life or what I am doing that sometimes I forget to smile. It is on a posted note to remind me to smile. Another one of my favorite quotes that goes alone with smiling is " "Don't frown. You never know who is falling in love with your smile."Love it and it is so true. Whether it is driving in my car, ordering food, shopping at the grocery store, teaching, walking in the neighborhood, shopping,or even just to tired/exhausted, etc.......just five words

SMILE!

LDS institute sorority :) = The Groovin Gamma =

Tonight I just joined a Sorority at the University of Utah Institute. Driving there and being back  into the college feeling was awesome. I loved seeing all the cars in the parking lot. Walking into the building and seeing other college students and I might add very attractive guys ;) ha ha who wouldn't want to miss that! I signed up and this girl Lindsey that is an officer was willing to take me around to look and observe the different institute groups to join. There were so many to choose from, i didn't know which one but decided to go with the GROOVIN GAMMA ;) Alisha told me to join this one and says that they are a really fun group, and just going in their room, it looked like a fun group of sister's and the parent as the leader looked awesome and was fun to talk to.  The officers were very helpful and got me excited...just hearing about the activities it makes me miss the college life down at snow but can't wait for this alot more people to get to know. There is a kickball tournament instead of powder puff can't wait for that it is in a couple of weeks. Being a P.E teacher that is what we played this week hopefully with doing that activity I can practice for the tournament but all that you have to do is kick a ball and catch it can't be that hard right...ha ha hopefully we win. I got an awesome Tie dye shirt with The groovin Gamma title on it ;) I'm excited to be in this group this semester and have the opportunity to meet new people and create new friends and new memories and of course meet some cute guys. I love how it is part of the Institute and they incorporate the Gospel ;) I love how we can all share the same standards and help each other grow as Daughters in this glorious gospel, Because we truely our all Sisters and Brothers in this world. I hope I can be an example to those around me and try my best to be the best I can and to participate in any way I can;)  I'm excited!!!

 -What The Groovin Gamma is all about-

Pledge: "I am a woman of God. I strive daily to be all that He wants me to be. I pledge to seek spiritual strength, increase bonds of sisterhood, foster lifelong scholarship, and render Christ-like service. I honor priesthood covenants and faithfully strive for the blessings of the temple. I find joy in womanhood and nobility in motherhood. "
Guiding Principle: "Wherefore, be of good cheer, and do not fear, for I the Lord am with you, and will stand by you; and ye shall bear record of me, even Jesus Christ, that I am the Son of the living God, that I was, that I am, and that I am to come. " D&C 68:6
Three Ideals:

1. Sisterhood: "Therefore, strengthen your (sisters) in all your conversation, in all your prayers, in all your exhortations, and in all your doings. " D&C 108:7
2. Scholarship: "....and ye shall grow in the knowledge of the glory of him that created you, or in the knowledge of that which is just and true." Mosiah 4: 12
3. Service: "Wherefore, be not weary in well-doing, for ye are laying the foundation of a great work. And out of small thing proceedeth that which is great." D&C 64:33

We sing the song "Be of Good Cheer" I guess after our meetings every thursday. I love the words to this song, they really stood out to me and loved singing it.

Lyrics to the song:)

Lord give me eyes to see the wonders of this earth.

Help me to only seek the things of greatest worth. 

Bless me, thorugh sun and rain to feel that thou are near.

To put my trust in Thee, and be of good cheer

I feel thy hand in nature's beauty.

Feel they perfect love for me.

And I'll be strong because I may Depend On saving Help from Thee Lord

help me know that thou wilt lift me when I fall.

Help me to understand that Thou art over all.

Give me a happy hear with vision bright and clear.

Bless me and lift me up

Help me to feel thy love

and be of good cheer.

I'm  excited for this semseter and being part of The Groovin Gamma ;)

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Love this quote and reminds me to use Enthusiasm throughout my day. I feel as if being a teacher for these two days and I continue this journey forward using Enthusiasm with the children is very important. It gets them excited to play the activity and participate. Which as a teacher you want them to all participate and to be an age appropriate activity.
ENTHUSIASM. reminds me of the childrens brook...Crysantheum...I had the hardest time reading that book one time when I was babysitting..but I had Enthusiasm in reading the story and figured out how to say it...ha ha! random! but love it! Being Postive. using enthusiasm. smile. laugh hard. achieved-

P.E adventure

It was my second day teaching P.E at Nibly park school. My mother and I have gotten down the routine of things and what we are suppose to do. The first day could not have gone any better I was exhausted after yesterday and today. It is crazy how much energy you lose after playing and watching these wonderful kids.
>favorite part of today-

1. Today was the first time to have the 8th graders..I admit I was pretty nervous to have them first of the day and was like man I don't think i can handle them..but they ended up to be very corporated and all particpated. It was fun to see their athletic abilities and how they worked as a class. One boy said to the Girl pitching...your a great pitcher...I wasn't sure if he was using scarchasm. but I told him that was very nice of him to say that to her....It made me realize man I need to say more compliments to people and praise the children for their ability and the way they shined. 
2. This little girl Kate in second grade....her class was lineing up to go back to their classroom with their regular teacher and I was telling the children thank you and how good they were and to see them next week. Then Kate was like....Can you keep a secret?...I said back to her Yes I can keep a secret....and then she said I'm Hannah Montana the superstar..shhh but don't tell anyone. After this cute little conversation it made me laugh and I had to go tell my assisant (mom;).
3. Outside playing games with the second graders another little girl with cute adorable glasses long blonde hair and said guess what! and I said what? and she said I'm a Famous Star ha ha These second graders are all stars and famous people. Wow I can't believe I was able to hang out with a famous star and Hannah Montana I feel so special to be their P.E teacher...maybe someday I will become famous just like them...ha ha Don't we all remember what we wanted to be, or who was our role models back when we were little whether it being a superstar, singer, dancer, movies..etc I know I have tried pretending to be certain characters when I was younger....oh man back in the day ;) ha ha but your never to old to play pretend.
4. Girls vs Boys is always fun doesn't matter what grade it always gets competive.. I played kickball with the third graders and was putting them into teams: Team 1 and Team 2 then I saw that there was enough to do Girls against boys so thats what we ended up doing. It was fun and loved watching the girl team cheer on who ever was kicking with their little chants...then the boys showing their tough skills and that they can win. The boys one this time..but it was a close game.
5. 1st graders where last group again today. Which on the first day was my favorite group...they still are;) I love the age group of 1st graders...they are adorable!!!! when I was about to play another game..this little boy zach said to me...man i'm exhausted can we just not do any moving..ha ha got to love P.E and getting the children tired and their physical activity in for the day. It is sad though that they only have P.E class once a week....I meet with the class and only for about thirty five mintue each..it goes by so fast. sometimes so fast and then i go get the next group. Teaching P.E these two days have been a blast and way better then I have expected! I love it! and of course can't forget my amazing assistant (mom) i could not have done this without her help...she is amazing...oh wait she is my mom. Love you MOM. Thanks!
   

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I'm going to be putting in my blog my favorite quote that I read that day...or that stood out to me;) I will post it in my blog and then share my thoughts or impressions. 

 I love quotes: I always gain some insight to help me in my life or to help me with any situation given and able to apply that quote to my life and I just enjoy reading them in my spare time. love love love quotes.
 

I looked up the word Ambiguity not sure of what the full meaning was it basically means unclear: uncertainty. I feel as if it is true. Life will sometimes be unclear but being the best we can can be and accepting this change or challenge in life and enjoy every bit and making the best of it:) I think back at those challenges or changes that have occurred in my life whether it having my oldest brother move out and doesn't want anything to do with his family in his life-moving away from home-starting a new phase of college life-stressful life of a college student-homework loads-testing for classes-friends that have hurt my feelings-being in a relationship of someone that I truly carried about and enjoyed being around that broke my heart-person who broke my heart and deleted me as a friend on facebook-hearing about friends in the past that have not made the best decisions and some going off the deep ends-moving back to Holladay and leaving the wonderful Snow college life behind-leaving friends but meeting new-starting a new job- I have of course many more but just to name a few that have occured in my life. I realize that I have gained so so so much through...each phase of my life. each challenge. each change. and love my life. and who I am. the end....

P.E teacher adventure

I got this job thinking that I would be a teacher's aid or a supervisor, not realizing that I am actually their P.E teacher.  Today was my first experience taking on this wonderful opportunity to see if this is something I want to go into it. I couldn't sleep last night, probably because I was nervous for today and didn't really know what to expect. I had a P.E activity for each age group ready for them today, but i kept thinking thoughts in my mind wondering if I could actually do this. I knew I couldn't do this alone, and asked my wonderful, kind, amazing mother to help team teach me. She was so kind and said she would help me. Which gave me so much comfort realizing that I have her help with these kids.  Thanks Mom and I love your support :) Nibly Park School is a very nice school, it has kindergarten through 8th grade. The thing that I am most worried about was the older children 7th, 8th. I have always loved working with children, babysitting in my neighborhood, working at East Millcreek summer camp. I feel like a better person when I'm with children. Again this is a new experience for me since I don't have a Bachelor's degree in Teaching. I only have my Associates, but they really needed somebody and I was willing to take on this job and thought I could use this in my future on my Resume.  My wonderful mom (Mrs. Monsen) and I drove to the school and started on the adventure of teaching P.E and making sure the children had a physical activity. It was interesting how the day went by. It seemed like it just flew by so fast, but at the same time loving every minute of it. With different age groups your not able to do the same activity because the younger kids aren't to into the kickball, soccer,etc. My favorite things that happened teaching today were the following.

1. I had two seventh grade girls needing to use the restroom next to my P.E office. They brought me their binders to hold while they went to the restroom. When they were leaving the one girl said to her friend...That is our new P.E teacher she is prettier then the other teacher. I laughed but it gave me confidence in myself realizing that I can do this.
2. Working with the 2nd graders. I was lineing them up against the wall to put them into teams, having the help of my wonderful assitant that I can't do this with out(mom;). The class was lined up against the wall and there were two children that were 3 feet away from the class. I told them to come closer to the group...and the one little boy was like I'm the line leader and need to be in front. So this little boy is trying to take on his job that the teacher gave him of being the line leader but at the same time this little girl is wanting to be in front. It was funny to see how firm he was about being the line leader. I bet we have all been in that kind of situation and standing firm on our position. 
3. Again this is my first day of doing this job at Nibly Park and we decided to do kickball with all the age groups...didn't work the way we wanted which was fine and we were able to go to plan B and the children loved it. The 1st graders we started off with kickball realizing the first kicker that this wasn't going to work. The one little boy Parker was lined up to kick. I told them after they kick the ball they run to the bases which were white and on the grass.  I pitched the kick ball to him and then this little boy Parker kicked it then step right on to home plate.Then the boy that was right by the kickball Dominque grabbed it and told Parker that he had to run to the other base and Parker was like she said to run to a white base so I choose this one....then Parker got off but Dominque got him out. It was also to hot so we went to plan B and played games in the shade. I love working with 1st graders, and realized this was my favorite class at the end of the day. I loved how attentive they were when I was taking, and they were all willing to participate with the different games. Just to see their smiles and the energy each child had I realized I was here to help them get their P.e acitivty in for the day, but also to have fun. 
4. After playing games with the first graders. One boy Darrick said to me when we were lining up in the shade to go back inside. He was like: Next P.E class can we please not do so much running and moving activity, because I am tired....it made me laugh because that is what P.E class is for to let out all your energy and do a physical activity. I told my assist (my mom) and she was like I wonder if he goes to math class asking the teacher can we stop doing math...ha ha so funny what children say. Love them.
5. A six grade girl when lining up after kickball to go inside to meet their regular teacher. She asked me if I was the new P. E teacher I said yes for a couple of months then you will get your old P.E teacher back. She said that she enjoyed me and really liked me as a P.E teacher. I love the partipation of the class and seeing them work well as students. Also it was hard not to call my mom, Mom in front of the students. Some students were able to catch it and would ask: Is that your mom? It made me laugh and of course I said yes, but it is Mrs. Monsen...I will need to try harder to say Mrs. Monsen. Two seventh grade girls heard that I said that and lining up to go inside. The one girl was like...so what is your mom fixing for dinner: chicken pot roast. and I said no i'm not quiet sure ha ha loving the fact that I have my mom there to help me with these children and make sure every thing is in control. Which it was and went GREAT! ;)

These children are each different and come from different families, backgrounds, friends, parents, living...etc but you gain an appreciation for each child in the class.  This little boy in 2nd grade wanted to go to the bathroom. I said that he could but to come back outside right after...he invited another 2nd grade boy to go with him. I said one at a time....then this 2nd grader Zachery said that he has watched to many R' movies in his life that he always gets nightmare's and can't go by himself. In my mind I felt sorry for this little boy and how innocent these children our but being with different influences in their lives it changes them to become the person they are later to become. I let both of them go to the bathroom. Inside hurt for that little boy and the movie that he watched that gave him nightmere's. This also gave me appreciation for my parents and for the way I was raised up. I really did take it for granted at the time. But now realizing how much of an impact they were and still our in my life time. I'm so glad I have the oppourtinuty to team teach with my mom and that she is willing to work with me and help me with this job tell November. It is a wonderful learning experience. I'm also so grateful for my P.e teachers after my last grade 2nd graders and driving home I was worn out from the activities today, and the lack of sleep last night. Teachers put a lot of effort into their classes and I look up to all teachers of all age groups. 

Ms. Monsen and Mrs. Monsen our the new P.E teachers in to action ;)

love my sister.

 

Kimberly's Favorite Song
I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did, I did
And you were strong and I was not
My illusion, my mistake
I was careless, I forgot
I did
And now when all is done
There is nothing to say
You have gone and so effortlessly
You have won
You can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Falling out of love is hard
Falling for betrayal is worst
Broken trust and broken hearts
I know, I know
Thinking all you need is there
Building faith on love is worst
Empty promises will wear
I know (i know)
And know when all is gone
There is nothing to say
And if you're done with embarrassing me
On your own you can go ahead tell them

Tell them all I know now
Shout it from the roof top
Write it on the sky love
All we had is gone now
Tell them I was happy
And my heart is broken
All my scars are open
Tell them what I hoped would be
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible
Impossible, impossible

Ooh impossible (yeah yeah)

I remember years ago
Someone told me I should take
Caution when it comes to love
I did

she is a creeper- but I love her

never fails in family

we are related

sometimes we struggle

wow 

Kimberly I love you thanks for helping me and being therefor me when i needed you most. Your an amazing example in my life, and I couldn't have asked for a better sister. Love you :)

friends.

I hate the feeling of when you go visit a friend and plan to sleep over at their place..and they just leave you 3 4 times for other friend situations.

I was so excited to see one of my friends that I met during the summer..and thought while I was during my math stuff at the college I would stop by and say hi…she said that I should sleep over so I was planning on it and brought my stuff. It was fun the first 4 hours of catching up and going to get a shake and etc….but through out the day I just felt like it was all about her..which I didn’t mind but when I was drivin in her car there were three of us..another friend of her’s. and he was like can I talk to you….so I walked around town and visited other friends which was fine..but then it happened again when we went to Roy pizza a friend of ours came also..but then said I have some information to tell you but can’t tell you when Sarah is her. Plus they are much older then me and know of my standards that I don’t swear or like to talk about gross situations…so I then just left and let them talk. It hurts when you go and visit a friend but then have to leave at the moment to find something else to do.

Meeting this friend during the summer she was way awesome and we had some good times.

After moving back home I have realized that she has fallen through the deep end.

When I visited her I heard more swearing then I did during the summer.

Her hair is now blonde very bright blonde. I liked her brown hair before it was so dramatic.

She loves drama and likes to get into everyone’s businesses.

Getting ready to go to a dance was fun.

But I don’t dirty dance like her and her sister.

So I left and went to go find other friends.

Went back to her place..again walking by myself to her apartment in the dark and she was there with her sister getting ready to go to a party or more like a guys place.

She kept saying sorry..but really if someone says sorry they should actually mean it and spend time with you.

She was talkinga bout this one basketball player that she liked and he was not treating her like she deserves and was just being rude…at the football game she saw him and decided to go and talk with him….she never came back and I could see them just hugging and flirting and of course he likes the attention but he is just using her. She likes it but will eventually get hurt.

At the dance she said she got invited to this one polynesions guys house.

She wants to get with all the basketball players…which was her goal now

It is sad to see people think that getting with the basketball players is going to get you somewhere in life.

She left and I was alone in her room she came back the next morning.

I didn’t want to know what she had been doing. It was none of my business and I didn’t want to know.

I want the best for my friends but can only be the example and do so much.

I wanted to go home Saturday but she was my ride back home and we left Sunday.

I found out what friends really are and who those are in my life.

singles ward.

I have gone to my singles ward in my area about 3 weeks in a row now. The first week I arrived I saw a best friend from High school and decided to tag along with her and her boyfriend realizing that I was in the wrong ward and mine was the 11th ward and her boyfriends was the 30th. I was able to gain a lot of insight and glad I went to there ward......Today was a great day going to the singles ward especailly from my break done last night..to many things on my mind...my mind was going a mile a mintue...but then when does it not ha ha Well  I texted a couple of girls from my home ward that used to be in Young Womens when I was in Young Womens and see if they wanted to join me. There were four of us that went to the singles ward together. I realized going by myself wasn't as fun, even though I wanted to meet new people, going there with fresh faces that I already knew before was so much fun. To sit by these three girls in sacramenting.sunday school. and the dating lesson in relief society brought back memories from Young Womens and how all four of us have moved on and life just keeps on moving foward.....sometimes it just goes by so fast that I just want it to PAUSE! ha ha but love the new adventures my life takes me. I loved going to the singles ward with Alisha, Lindsey, and Cailtan and hope that in the future time we will be riding together again. I am going to the temple on friday with Alisha and can't wait to go to the Salt Lake Temple again. I have truely missed that temple. it is one of my favorite temples and hope to get married in it someday. well singles ward was great. inviting people to go with me is a for sure thing to do next week. loved the lessons. loved the testimonys of other single adults in my ward. loved the lesson on dating. loved getting a ride. loved getting together with these four even though we might have not been the closest in YW. love how the gospel brings people together in the area and we all have something in common. love today makes me appreciate so much that I have in life.........THIS GLORIOUS GOSPEL!

through time.....

Recently being back home I am just losing it.
Lots on my mind.
I just hate being alone.
nothing to do with friends everyone is either at BYU, USU or SNOW to far.
miss being in the college atmosphere...but signing up for a institute class will help.
love hearing about friends at college and happy for them. but then wish I was there with them.
not even a best friend  to talk to or go on a walk.( but grateful for technology)
i walked our family dog Lily for thirty mintues just her and me.
tears drops.
walks in the dark.
wind blows. just me and my new best friend-dog.
hates face-book. time. and just eats me up.
parents went to movie.
brother and sister at  friends.
all my family gone. just me and my dog. weird. very weird. very very weird.
jealous i have none...but then again happy for her and the enjoyment of high school and how happy and excited she is. She is my role model and I look up to her in so many ways. I love her and glad that family will always be with me.
need a night time job. still looking in progress.
not ready for my teaching job. quiet nervous and scared don't know what to expect.
maybe i should go into a clothing store job. don't know just going through a weird phase.
I thank my sister for letting me watch Christopher she recently watched him during the summer and since she is at school I have taken her place. He is adorable and I always know that my sister comes first in babysitting and then I will come second. Plus even though christoper is little I know he choose my sister first then me, because well she is amaizn. the end ;)
It has helped me alot, keeps me busy and he is very entertaining.
I have a lot I should be grateful for and need to snap out of all the things on my mind and tearing my self apart at the moment. I think it is just that phase that I don't have a job to keep me busy and feel like I am a bum...probably because  my job starts Tuesday can't wait tell i get back in the working mode. I never thought I would say that but having a job. earning money is fun;)
signing up for an institute class can't wait also. love learning about this gospel and each lesson helps me to become a better person and not to think of myself.
I am in a new chapter of my life..and it will get better through time.....

F.A.M.I.L.Y

Moving out I didn't think I would be moving back home.
I love the fact that Home is Always where the Heart is.
and once you move out. i can move back in but of course not for my whole life. ha ha enless my parents want me to. but I like the being on my own and miss it terribly but need to be postive and be the best I can be moving back home.
i moved into my brothers room who recently moved out.
it is small but least i have a bed that is all I need.
I have a wonderful neighbor that I can't ask for a better one it is my little brother Richard.
Richard- is in 9th grade. He is my favorite little brother that I have ever had..and sorry I think I have the best little brother also. I look up to him so much for his example and his loving testimony of this gospel. I love how he gets up early each morning....5:30 is pushing it for me...but being his next door nieghbor...my room is next to him i sometimes hear him. I love him so so so so so sos so so much. I love everything about him...I guess being a sister you can;) I hope I can be a better example to him by moving back home and show him the best of me. I want to try and go to the temple and take him to do Baptisms..hopefully once i figure out my working schedule and his school schedule it will work out during the week if not then saturday mornings it is. He has early morning seminary which I look up to him for that waking up early....he is the early bird in the family kind of like my mom. I am the late night bird..staying up late and sleeping in.
Kimberly- Is my neighbor around the corner...her room is by the stairs. I love what she does to her room, changes it and makes it her room all the time. I recently had her room before i moved out for a year and was down at Snow college. Moving back i want my old room back, but of course I know the best is for me to have a smaller room so i can downsize,because i have realized I have a lot...and take all my things for granted...soon I need to go through my things on what I don't use and dontate it to the D.I but for now I guess i will enjoy it ha ha. Kimberly also is an example to me in this gospel. Her testimony strenghtens mine as well as my brothers. They are both so young, but at the same time growing up and so strong in this gospel. I love seeing them both open their scriptures or share at dinner time what they have learned. It really does help me and I appreciate living with them. I love how family will always be there for you in what ever circumstance we are given. Being away from how I appreciated my family so much more, because I of course missed them. Being back home I'm grateful for them also..but then at times I just want to move out...but of course loving it. They are both so busy in school and friends, I love seeing the activites they do and the things they get done each day. They are both a big strength and I love them to death.
I LOVE YOU KIMBERLY> I LOVE YOU RICHARD :)
David- I have changed his room. and he probably doesn't want to come back to his room because it is now black.pink. and white I have taken over. :) I think i did a better job in decorating the room. But of course what guy usually decoreates their room and make it a homeful place. They just care if they have somewhere to live. David I know has been through a lot and I just want him to know that I love him so much and he knows that I am hear whenever he wants to talk. I recently went to California with my brother that was so much fun. I'm glad I could tag along. hopefully i wasn't a pain;) i know i wasn't ha ha. I love the hikes my brother and I go on. Hopefully this year 2010 we will hike mount olympus and make it to the top again like we did last year. I always enjoy our talks that we have they are always great.
i love his car and want to steal it from hiim. i enjoy driving it and thanks for sharing your car ;) ha ha
Parents- of course are the reason I am who I am. I love my mom and Dad and for putting up with me. They have seen me through the best of times and through the worst of times but will always love me for who I am. I love their examples on me and the ways of life they live and what is important to them. I love both of their strengths in this gospel and to see them shine. Both of them are amazing and I couldn't have asked for better parents. Of course I know that I got the best end....and the best parents ever!!!! Thanks for all you have givin me thanks for letting me move back home. I appreciate the food. the family. the room. everything.
I love them so much!!!!
I LOVE MY FAMILY AND HAVE THE BEST FAMILY EVER EVER EVER FOR ETERNITY :)
I love that about the gospel that I know I will be with my family for eternity that I am sealed with them, what a blessing it gives me when I am down to know that gives me such strength. Being home from college of course I miss my roommates and all of the friends that I was able to meet down there...but for one thing I know for sure is I love my family for who they are and their great examples in my life. They are better then money. cars. houses.fashion. clothes. shoes. friends. laptop. icecream. anything sugar of course. They are number 1
LOVE:> mom. dad. alan. david. me. kimberly. richard......Lily. and (rascal in heaven)